Landed in New York

Okay, so Im in New York. Saturday after Thanksgiving, been here since October 9th 2009…. Thats exactly 59 days. I just woke up 1 hour ago in the usual restless impatient mode. Which is actually rather uncomfortable and which I work to get out of. Manhatten is electric and does that to you.

Ive switched the language into english.. because Im now in US, and in case this blog is ever going to go somewhere… This is my attempt to jumpstart-a-nice-blog-routine post. My original thought with this blog was to write down all the little conflicts in my mind, and all my new realisations, that I get a lot of every week. My idealistic mind forse me into thinking about EVERYTHING and my ambition and tornado energy make me take action and change myself. BUT… It was difficult. where to start, what to write and what not to write. There is so many layers to every subject. To keep such a blog I had to be very organized – a skill I have just learned recently.. its still in the process of development.

Since Im so good at dealing with my own shadows and emotional luggage, Ive decided to turn it into a business overhere. Of course why not!?  The past 10 years Ive been thinking nonstop everyday and considering every little aspect on both macro and micro level. So Im going to do seminars and workshops on how to build a life from scratch… and oh yeah, I think people need some etiquette too. I could probably not do it in Denmark at this stage, because danes dont wanna listen to young people. But thats a whole other subject and a post of its own.

I really want to keep this short. Otherwise Ill never get a nice routine going on! Its 11.17 AM and fleamarket is where I wanna go. I LOVE fleamarkets, and I want a saturday where I can do whatever I want and dont have anything to do. But thats not my life yet. Sadly.

Tomorrow sunday November 29th Im going to visit Anika in Tarrytown, who I just met last week. Its north of Manhatten and Ive been told it is beautiful and nature-yummi up there. Sunday is dedicated to THAT experience. Monday.. no actually Tuesday is the day to report company income and pay taxes to Danish government.. (I have a life-sketch-event company.. above all.. more about that one in another post) so I woke up thinking today was the only day for that report. Ive deferred it like I do with uncomfortable stuff……………………

I woke up yelling at my self inside to get some other important work done, cause otherwise I think I will never go anywhere with this life..

AH, idea – think Ill try something brand new today!! Leave it all for one more day and defer it to monday where I need to go to work anyway. I always make it on time. In most areas of my life, so far its been usefull to treat myself with opposit psychology………. So for God sake, Go to that fleamarket and have a good time..

And suddenly, right now, Im afraid – after fleamarket, where Im not suppose to spend any money by the way, then what??????… hmm I guess when my restlessness sets in, I can start working on my things then?  Uuuuhhh scaring. What if I find out..  that I really have nothing to do besides all that work…..??? Dilemma.

For now Ill turn my routine upside down, close the computer and get out of this tiny, dark expensive quiet room, and break my routine and fear of then what?